Just found out something today which really upset me. Its amazing how much other people's opinions of you can affect you. If it were from someone who knows me well and works with me constantly, maybe it would be a fair statement to make. But its not and it shouldn't be affecting me. But it does!

What have I done to deserve this? Is this the price to pay for attempting to live entirely for You? Being persecuted by my own? How do people get so blinded by themselves? So full of themselves that they don't realise that they need to be sensitive to the feelings of others. So much talk going on. So much poison in the church. Within the body of Christ! Dear Lord forgive us! Could I be the one who is wrong? That is a question I have to always ask myself. Or else I might turn out to become like one of them.

Dear Lord, I seek to please only You. I press on so that I can draw nearer to you. I hold my head up high because You walk beside me and I am blameless in Your sight. Give me the strength I need to be silent. So that I will not become like the people who do things that I despise. Remind me to speak blessings and not curses. Teach me to act and speak in love. Amen.

"You have to wait... You have to take this time to prepare... So that you will be ready. Have you forgotten... I do not forget!"
This was a word from Patricia when she prayed for me during prayer meeting. This is what I should be focusing on. Not on the politics. But I have this to say.
God's plans are bigger than you, your ideas and your games.

::: Song of the Day :::
Look at earth from outer space
Everyone must find the place
Give me time and give me space
Give me real, don't give me fake

Give me strength, reserve control
Give me heart and give me soul
Give me time give us a kiss
Tell me your own Politik

Give me one, cause one is best
And in confusion, confidence
Give me peace of mind and trust
And don't forget the rest of us
Give me strength, reserve control
Give me heart and give me soul
Wounds that heal and cracks that fix
Oh Love, tell me your own politik

Just open up your eyes
And give me love over desire
| coldplay - politik |

Its funny... I just re-confirmed today something I learned about myself a few years ago. It happened when Reverend Joe Purcell mentioned about pride being one of the reasons why we're afraid to prophesy in the Spirit. We're afraid of being wrong and being shamed. I think pride is one of the key factors in my life. Although I've tried to not to be proud or over-confident in my abilities, there's still a small element of not wanting to 'lose face'. I think its a side effect of being brought up in an Asian (read: Singaporean) culture. It has made me realise why I haven't improved in my chinese since primary 4. Its because I'm afraid of making a fool of myself when I speak chinese. I can't get the correct pronunciation and my classmates in primary school used to laugh at the way I spoke or read it.

There are problems afoot in Charis. It seems to me that this is what happens when people try to take things into their own hands. Doing what they THINK God would want them to do. But who am I to judge whether what they do is right or not? All I know is that this is not they way Jesus would treat His people. And however much we want to serve & please Him, we shouldn't take people's feelings for granted. Different stages of growth, different growth rates... You don't pry a butterfly out of the cocoon, or try to spread the petals of a flowering bud.

::: Song of the Day :::
In His time, in His time.
He makes all things beautiful, in His time.
Lord, please show me every day,
As You’re teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say,
In Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to You I bring,
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing,
In Your time.
| maranatha! music - in his time |

Good morning everyone... I'm up on this beautiful Sunday. This is one of the best weekends I've had in a long time. I managed to catch delirious and Hillsong's Darlene Zschech at the indoor stadium. Its amazing how high worship can go! And I've learnt that it isn't the band that moves me to worship God, the band makes mistakes. Its the fact that Darlene is worshipping, the entire stadium is worshipping, all are focused on my God and King. What is greater than worshipping God? To know that there are many beside you who worship the same God as you.

::: Word of the Day :::
onomatopoeia (noun)
The formation or use of words that imitate the sounds associated with the objects or actions they refer to. (eg. buzz or murmur)

::: Song of the Day :::
Cold, cold water surrounds me now
And all I've got is your hand
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Or am I lost?

Love one's daughter
Allow me that
And I can't let go of your hand
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Or am I lost?
[chanting] Cold, cold water surrounds me now
And all I've got is your hand
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Lord, can you hear me now?
Or am I lost?
| damien rice - cold water |